My Euthanasia Stories

The decision to euthanize your beloved pet is painful and every pet parent has a story to tell.

Here are some of mine. I hope they comfort you or help you make a decision.

Solo's Legacy:

Learning to Let Go

I have always shared my life with cats. Many years ago, I started feeding a scruffy orange and white stray cat. At first there was no rhythm to his appearances, but he soon began showing up on a regular basis. He was thin and afraid. I asked about him around my neighborhood and learned that he had been surviving alone on the streets for at least three years. Because he looked so lonely, I named him SoLo.

Over time, and with much work, Solo trusted me enough that I was able to take him to the veterinarian for
vaccinations and a bath. When we came home, I decided to find out how he would adjust to the house. I opened the carrier and he plopped on the couch like he had always lived there. From that moment on, Solo became an indoor cat and good friend. Even if I opened the door and invited him out, he would sit on his favorite rug and refuse to budge.

Solo thrived and became a beautiful majestic fellow. For six months we enjoyed each other’s company and I grew to love him very much. Then one day I noticed bleeding gums. After a few tests, the veterinarian told me that Solo had
feline leukemia. There was no cure and it could be a bad death. The doctor suggested euthanasia. I had known this wonderful cat for less than a year. It wasn’t fair. I couldn’t do it.

For the next three months, I chose
aggressive treatment to keep Solo alive while I watched him fade into a frail shadow. Most animals have strong survival instincts that drive them to cling to life against all odds. I also believe they possess an inborn sense that tells them when it is time to let go. On a particularly bad day Solo looked at me with soulful eyes and softly meowed, as if to implore, “Please stop the suffering.” I called the vet's office and Solo took his final breath later that afternoon cradled in my arms.

I made a promise to myself, and to Solo, on that day so many years ago: I would never again place my need to hang on above my pet’s need to let go. Solo probably had acquired leukemia before we met. He had come to me for a
good death and I nearly failed him. The lesson was painful, but it is one that I cannot forget. Many amazing cats have graced my life since then--some for a short while, some for many years. Because of Solo’s legacy, when the sad time arrives to decide, I can love them enough to let them go.

Eddie:

A Cautionary Story of Hope

Eddie was born on the day my 16-year-old cat died. I met him at a shelter when he was two weeks old. I brought him home at age eight weeks. Eddie, also known as Panthera Plumpo, was large, orange and affectionate. His playfulness made me laugh but he also knew when I needed the quiet comfort of a lap cat.

When he was 12, I noticed a decline in his health through the loss of appetite, weight and energy. He also developed an occasional cough. I took Eddie to 
the veterinarian and learned that my cat had muffled heart sounds. The chest X-ray revealed a large mass (tumor) in his left chest. Blood work indicated anemia.

The veterinarian and I discussed
euthanasia. I asked my vet what he would do if this were his cat. Because Eddie did not yet have labored breathing, or continuous coughing, he said that he would give his cat a long-acting steroid injection: "This will make him more comfortable and give you time to say goodbye." I took his advice and brought Eddie home with a heavy heart.

Days passed and he began to improve. Four weeks later, his heart sounds were more audible and he received another steroid injection. Five weeks after that, Eddie was acting like his healthy, playful self. His appetite increased and he returned to normal weight.

I took him in for another
radiograph of his chest and repeat blood studies. The X-rays and lab tests were normal. The tumor and anemia were gone. To quote the veterinarian, "The only thing I know for certain is that the chest mass was responsive to steroids. Observe him closely for a return of symptoms, but for now, you have a miracle cat." Eddie probably had a lymphoma that responded to steroids.

My veterinarian said that a round of
steroids should be considered before making the decision to euthanize your pet for three reasons: 1) Steroids often make the animal more comfortable, 2) They may give you a little time to say goodbye, and 3) Once in a while, if the condition is responsive to steroids, the treatment improves or heals the condition. Of course, the benefits of steroids must be weighed against the potential for harm. For example, steroids will make a bacterial infection worse because they suppress the immune system and can predispose animals to diabetes; but, if your pet is dying, steroids are worth a try. 

I am sharing this story because I almost euthanized Eddie prematurely. Euthanasia is final and the decision deserves careful evaluation. Perhaps my experience will help you. Every situation is unique, so before you make the difficult decision to euthanize your beloved pet, please ask your veterinarian about the
benefits and risks of steroid therapy for your pet's specific condition. It could extend your companion animal’s life, or at the very least, give you time to say goodbye.


Post Script:

Eddie died of GI complications 18 months later, but he had quality time because of the decision to forego euthanasia and try steroids. I finally chose euthanasia because it was the loving thing to do. I was present for his final breath and the last voice he heard was mine.

Our pets’ time on earth is fleeting. Our brief interval together is never enough. If we have loved animals our entire lives, we experience grief again and again. I am grateful Eddie was part of my family for 13-plus years. Now he lives in my heart. Wait for me on The Bridge, Eddie Spaghetti. I love you.

Andy:

Safe Passage

Andy was a proud and strong cat, dominant yet social. He curled his tail over his back to display authority. He loved people and was tolerant of other cats. Andy never hurried—he sauntered toward the door to welcome visitors. He positioned himself in the middle of family gatherings. Although I did not know his genealogy, I called him the dog of cats, extroverted like a Burmese. Tuxedo cats have expressive faces. Andy would widen his mouth into a tuxedo cat smile and purr if I stroked him on the forehead.

 

Andy entered my life when my neighbors moved and left him behind. When I realized that he was abandoned, I opened the door to my home and he walked into my heart. My husband is not fond of cats. I used to tell him that was because he had not yet met the right cat. Andy was the right cat.

 

After recovering from some common infections of stray cats, Andy enjoyed a decade of good health and then he began a slow decline. His primary medical problems were hyperthyroidism, high blood calcium and elevated pancreatic enzymes. It became clear during the last month of his life that he no longer enjoyed being Andy. My once strong and proud cat was weak and wobbly, with a drooping tail.

 

Like most felines, Andy didn’t appreciate visits to the veterinarian. He was not aggressive, but always feisty and vocal. On the day of his euthanasia, he was silent and calm. The veterinary hospital has a euthanasia room—a private place to spend time with a beloved pet and say goodbye. Because of the staff’s compassionate care, Andy died the way he lived: unafraid.

 

When the euthanasia was complete, the sadness in the room decreased. I felt love, calm and peace. My veterinarian noticed the change, too. He left the room so I could be alone with Andy for a few minutes. Andy’s face had been drawn and tired looking the last day of his life. He hadn’t smiled for at least a week. As I looked at my dear friend for the final time, I saw that his mouth had relaxed into his sweet tuxedo cat smile. He didn't look tired anymore. I believe that he made a safe passage from this world to the next.

I miss his greetings at the door, talking to me as he followed me from room to room, snuggling on the sofa or bed, nudging my face when he thought it was time to rise and dine, supervising from the dryer top while I folded laundry, hopping in the bathtub for a quick drink and, most of all, his tuxedo cat smile. Andy’s serene countenance is the last image I have of him. I will carry it in my heart forever and be grateful for it. His good death affirms that suffering passes while love remains. His peaceful transition comforts me. Thank you, Andy. Rest well, my friend.

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